NEGLECTED!!

Neglected!!

I am feeling neglected,
As if people are secretly wishing I was dead.
I am very disappointed,
As when any step I tread,
The road seems to vanish from under my feet.
I am feeling left out,
And there’s gradually building in me,
An immense amount of self-doubt.

I am feeling neglected,
As if people are secretly wishing I was dead.
The people who I called my very own,
Are not supporting me anymore.
The people whom I had trusted,
Have in turn betrayed me.
And thus, my life has arrived,
At such a dead-end.

I am feeling neglected,
As if people are secretly wishing I was dead.
I did only those things, that
Suited me the most.
Initially, I even had the support,
Of colleagues, family and friends.
But they just left me hanging,
And now, all my past decisions I keep repenting.

I am feeling neglected,
As if people are secretly wishing I was dead.
I had all the things that I wanted,
Coz I was always given everything I demanded.
Then, why wasn’t I given peace and freedom,
Or a solution to my never-ending tiredness and boredom.
I was gifted things I desired,
But why was I shielded from those I deserved.

I am feeling neglected,
As if people are secretly wishing I was dead.
Why is my life so confusing,
And why am I alone and weeping.
The ones who let me down weren’t crooks or thugs,
They were my colleagues,my family, my friends.
I feel, now,there’s only one solution,
To seek companionship of alcohol and drugs.

I wish my life would change,
And somehow, it would pacify my rage.
I seek someone who would be my guardian,
And who would relieve me from this pain and tension.
I seek divine intervention,
Who would bring in me a transformation.
But what one seeks is not always what one gets,
What one gets is a life equivalent to a thousand deaths……