Straight from my heart...

If you want me to!! I can go away from you, If you want me to, I can live without you, If you ask me to, Yes, I want to spend time with you, Yes, I want to be with you always, But I don’t want to force you, To be my partner in good and bad times, I know I can’t make you happy, I know I can’t make you smile, Maybe that’s why you want to push me away, Maybe that’s why you seem different these days, I want to hold you tightly, To tell you, I need someone like you, To tell you, you have enriched my life, And to say, don’t leave me, I need you, Maybe I am being selfish, In asking you to be by my side always, And now I realize; if going away will make you happier, Then I am ready to gleefully part, Yes, I would be lonely without you, Yes, there would be emptiness, A void, which can never be filled, And countless dreams left unfulfilled, Yes, I would have no one to make me smile, Yes, I would have no one to tell my problems to, But don’t worry, someday I will be fine, Maybe loneli...

I want you back!! There was a time you said, I make you smile everyday, Things have drastically changed, now you say, I merely depress you, There was a phase when you showered me, With innumerable compliments, for you I was adorable, But now my presence makes you miserable, I am a stranger; just a nobody, I wonder why you despise me so much, Why is that I don’t exist, But you’ll always figure in the list, Of the most important people in my life, I truly care for you, I still love you, Daily I want to rekindle our romance, Daily I pray for that one chance, To spend a few moments with you, my love, I just can’t move on, however hard I try, When I am engrossed in my work, Your thoughts engulf my mind, it goes berserk, I just can’t forget you, My heart is filled with a hundred memories, More importantly, with many a thousand desire, The flame has metamorphosed into an uncontrollable fire, As I crave for you every minute, every second, Every couple I see on the road, Reminds me o...

I have lost you!! I still can’t believe, That I have lost you, As daily I want to relive, All the magical moments I shared with you, I wonder what went wrong, You just distanced from me, As perpetually I long, For your company, I try to find a way ahead, But without you, I see none, The smile has faded, Coz I knew you were the one, The night I vividly remember, When I had expressed my feelings for you, Your heart was gripped with joy and fear, And you had said, I love you too, I remember our first date, The second, third, every single one, And I wonder how could fate, Be so cruel and steal the special one, Our love was supposed to last, It was going to surpass many a barrier, How could life change so fast, Maybe it’s true; nothing lasts forever, Daily I still keep dreaming, Of creating worlds with you, Maybe it’s high time I start realizing, You have gone; I have lost you………

You have changed!! Is it that you have changed, Or were you always this way, We were so close once, How could we wilt away, It hurts to know, You now want to ignore me, We had such a good time together, And I felt it would last till eternity, There were so many memories, So many moments dear, Was everything just a lie, Were we so far, though so near, I wanted us to come closer, But all you wanted was to move apart, You have changed a lot, And now I feel a void in my heart, What went wrong I wonder, Your voice I keep waiting for, I close my eyes and see you, It’s your smile I keep looking for, It hurts to know, I don’t figure anywhere, On your list of priorities, Life, I now feel, is so unfair, Dreams were many, my love, We could have built a paradise together, So it hurts even more to know, You have changed; you have gone forever…………….  

I lied to you!! This poem is an insight into the mind of a person who, in a moment of anger, lost the person he loved the most… and now he’s repenting it…..alas, like most realizations, it’s too late!! I lied to you, my love, When I said I was angry, When I said I didn’t want to, See your face or talk to you, I lied to you, my love, When I said I can stay happy, Without your presence, and, I don’t want your protective hand, I lied to you, my love, When i said, I won’t miss you, Or when I said, it won’t matter, If we are not together, forever, I lied to you, my love, But you thought all I said, Was the truth, and you went away, And since then, I have been dying everyday, I won’t lie to you anymore, And I’ll tell you one truth, Right now, I am missing you, And I want to spend my life with you, I am not lying to you, when I say, Right now, I hope you’ll walk through, The door, and the tightest hug you’ll give, As all the past memories we relive, I lied to you so much, my love,...

The last goodbye!! I am waiting for your phone call, That in the past fifteen days, never came, And it makes me wonder how could we fall, Into such a trench; it’s such a shame, In my mind, I see you drifting apart, Every moment, you are moving away, Faster than light, as my heart, Is shattered, into a million pieces everyday, I wonder is there a way, I could somehow stop you, And hold you in my arms today, And don’t leave me alone, I could tell you, But then I realize, it’s the last goodbye, You have disappeared into thin air, Never to return, as I let out a sigh, And wonder, why is life so unfair, I feared this moment all along, I knew you would ditch me, and give me immense pain, I hoped my intuition would be wrong, It unfortunately proved right, yet again, Somewhere in the innermost crevice of my heart, I wish you’d call or turn up and say, Baby, It’s not the last goodbye; we don’t have to part, We’d be together, forever, truly, I keep dreaming; I wish I could meet you, J...

Someday…!! Someday you’ll need me, The way I now need you, Someday you’ll miss me, The extent to which I now miss you, I won’t dream about that day, Or about you, about us, henceforth even once, Coz I am learning to live without you anyway, And you are slowly losing importance, Someday you’ll understand my worth, And you’ll want me by your side, But for that, you’ll have to wait another birth, Coz in my eyes, till then you would have died, I am now used to your presence, But soon memories of you would be wiped out, I would get used to your absence, And it’s you, I would no longer be caring about, Someday you’ll realize the extent, Of your callousness, of your selfishness, And I can envisage you bent, On your knees, weeping, seeking forgiveness, Neither God nor I would forgive your infidelity, May you be forever doomed in hell, But someday we’ll meet again, that’s a surety, And I’ll smile, to see you dying in solitude; this I can tell…  

I know you don’t love me!! I feel refreshed when I think about you, For you are like the morning dew, You don’t love me, I know, Yet of your thoughts, I can’t let go, I sought with you, just one date, So many months did I patiently wait, Joy eluded me yet again, As tears came pouring down, like the rain, I daily wonder, why can’t I be, In your life, the first priority, I know you never loved my heart, Yet with you, it doesn’t want to part,   I don’t expect us to be together, I don’t envisage a future here, But still I’ll dream about you, Of our marriage, of our kids too, To see you in his arms all-encompassing, It makes me a jealous being, To imagine you ensconced on the couch, at his place, It brings a deep frown on my face, I know you never loved me, Yet in you, my perfect woman I’ll always see, I don’t expect any reciprocation from you, Just don’t stop me from loving you……………………… p.s- this poem depicts the sentiments of a guy, who...

It’s complicated!! I try hard to forget you, Yet a part of me, Still wants to be with you, It’s all complicated, really, You said so easily, To let go all the romantic feeling, That I felt about you, every moment, daily, As since then, a way to forget you, I keep seeking, I kept telling myself, That I am mentally strong, I’ll soon be my former self, This depression won’t last long, In few days, I felt I had gotten over your face, Yet there was an awkward moment, When I passed by the place, Where the first time we went, It’s hard to forget the first crush, Harder coz it’s an angel like you, That’s why I still blush, When someone still teases me about you, By now, my love should have faded, I should have been happy for you, I should have come to terms with your decision, But in reality, it’s all complicated, I want to stop loving you, Yet a part of me, Still keeps craving for you, It’s all complicated, I can’t explain really………..

I pass by her home!! I pass by her home, And suddenly I feel all alone, My world crashes down, And I am left with a defeatist frown, I see her through the window, She sees me, and then she does go, Slamming the window, like a kid wild, As my heart lacerates from the inside, I pass by the restaurant where we ate, On our first official date, The owner gaily waves at me, Surprised, for my love he didn’t see, The road I am walking on, surrounded by trees, Is filled with countless memories, Many a time we had walked there, But about its serenity, now I don’t care, I pass by the ice-cream parlour, Where we had our first kiss together I recollect, it was a hot day in may, And one I think of, everyday, I pass by the beach tempting and blue, Where we often sat, as the time flew, I remember our walks in the rain, Alas, some things won’t be the same again, I feel an unstoppable pang of pain, As my mind is filled again, With thousand happy, yet past me...

That last look!! I have tried to put behind, All those memories forever, But that last look lingers, In my otherwise forgetful mind, I try to forget the past, Coz it’s the future that’ll last, Yet I can’t forget that last look, And every single step, that while parting she took, My life’s a dingy pit, Bleak, drab and nondescript, I want this phase to end, But there’s just no road ahead, I can’t forget the last look, And every single step, that while parting she took, Or her blatant goodbyes, As I was left with teary eyes, I remember every word she spoke, As every piece of my heart, She so callously broke, Piercing it with an intangible dart, I can’t forget that last look, And every single step, that while parting she took, As she slammed my door, Leaving me all bruised and sore, What was my fault, my mistake, For her, I could have put my life at stake, I had wanted to be with her, In this birth and forever, It’s been an year, I want to forg...

I want you near!! I want you near, By my side, here, Without you, life’s so mundane, And everything seems so lame, I want you near, In my arms forever, I miss you so much, And with the world, I am losing touch, I see beautiful girls around, But I think of your face, And your smile flawless, In the background, I miss your constant giggle often, And your romantic whispers, I think of all the fun, We had, in the past three years, Sometimes I just sit by the ice-cream parlour, Where we had gone on our first date, And all I do is patiently wait, Hoping you’ll come over, I know I am being too sanguine, But I believe you’ll come back to me, Running into my arms waitin’, Outstretched, to hold you gladly……….

The pretty girl in white!! I had broken up recently, My life was going down the drain, I was waiting for the train, Depressed, and engrossed in my thoughts completely,   I was standing at the station, Craving for one moment of elation, When I saw a girl in white, Walking towards me, from my right, She waved to me, smiling, I smiled back at her, blushing, Her hair was smooth and wavy, And she was driving me crazy, She was pretty, she was tall, The innocence in her eyes said it all, I just couldn’t believe it, That it was I, she was coming to meet, The girl in white, lovely and fair, Was just a few yards away, As I began to adjust my hair, Wondering what was I going to say, I kept gazing at her, She kept coming nearer, I stood up to greet her, Gripped with nervousness and fear, But she just passed by me, Without even looking at me, I turned behind, only to see, She had waved to some other guy; it wasn’t me,   I broke into boistero...

How could you?? How could you hurt her, She’s my best friend, When you had promised you’d be with her, Forever, till the end, How could you bring, Buckets of tears in her eyes, And for months she kept waiting, Every moment, every day, amidst anguish and cries, How could you not care, When once you claimed you loved her, Do you know, you transformed her, Into a zombie, aimlessly wandering here and there, How easy it was for you to say,  It won’t work, It’s all over, When you had promised to be with her, In good and bad times, come what may, You hurt my best friend, You shattered her dreams, She blindly did everything you said, But you never understood her, it seems, How could you be so filthy, And so callous and mean, And if still you think you’re clean, Then, that’s the joke of the century, She's my best friend ,                ...

My best friend!! Her mind seemed clear, On her face was a fake smile, Yet in my best friend’s eyes, I saw a tear, That kept appearing after every short while, People were consoling her, But so far, nothing they said, Seemed to stop her tear, As for them to leave, I patiently waited, I had been through this, I knew how she was feeling, Her moments that were full of bliss, Had suddenly transformed into a bitter feeling, Break-ups are so often life changing, She must be really distraught, As it’s really hard to get over something, One has always sought, I could see in her eyes, The pain, the extent of her agony, She was so weary,I could perceive, Yet I could give her nothing but sympathy, I held her hand, Gently I kissed her forehead, Life can be cruel, we must understand, Wiping off her tears, to her I said, My best friend, life moves on, Don’t lose hope, keep believing, Coz there’s...