Straight from my heart...

The world of Neil Joseph!!                                            Today on occasion of my second anniversary, I have decided to write a story. An autobiography. An insight into my world. Not my entire world, just a part of it. But an integral and the most important part of my life. Love and friendship.                      Welcome to the world of Neil Joseph, welcome to the world of Neil and Ria …..and Swati!! The beginning!!                  Love is just a waste of time. Countless romantic movies with typical stories, twists, and endings made me a strong “anti-love” person. (If there’s a word of that kind) But like all opinions, even this changed. It had to change. Coz I met an angel.                 It was the first day of college. I was shy, aged 16, walking alone, amidst the crowd, towards the auditorium for an orientation lecture. While some of the others were busy searching for some good-looking girls (hot chicks), I was nervous about

Priceless moments!! Dedicated to my two best friends… Sometimes we seek happiness, In the grandest of things, But it’s strange we get true joy, In the smallest of things, An evening spent with you means more, Than a lifetime with some random friend, Some memories truly remain, Priceless till the very end, There was a time I gave, Undue importance to my lover, At the cost of friendship, Now I realize, even friendship does matter, This change in my mindset, Wouldn’t have been possible, Had I not met angels like you, Whom I care for, yet like to annoy and trouble, I don’t know if I have told you this, But everytime I meet the two of you, When we part, the very next moment, I begin to miss you, I can’t sleep for hours at night, As the moments spent with you, I keep thinking about, It’s not an exaggeration, You were there for me, When I needed a friend, You are the two I will count upon, Always, forever, till my days end, There were times we fought,

The parting glance!! Alas, It was time to part, I realized deep in my heart, I would never see my buddies again, And also no drug could ease this pain, They had come to bid me goodbyes, At the airport with teary eyes, I went numb, I didn’t feel like going, Coz  my soul I was leaving behind, I hugged everybody present there, Saying to each, I’ll miss you, take care, Accepting  cards and notes sentimental, And many other parting gifts too, Every small step away from them I took, With moist eyes at everyone did I look, That parting glance made me forlorn, It made me realize that henceforth I would be alone, Before my eyes flashed the past few years, I tried hard to wipe those tears, But it was no use coz they came harder each moment, Reminding me of the things i was going to miss, They were the ones who cared for me, They were the ones who always supported me, Through thick and thin, I sat in the plane, reminiscing, Seeing me cry, the airhoste

The contrast!! We were much better friends, Three months ago, What went wrong then, Daily I wish to know, We had promised that, We would be friends forever, How could we then drift apart, Sadly I have no answer, I admit I did a few things, That hurt you, that angered you, Yet how could you forget, The little, nice things I often did for you, Our bond was really strong, And misunderstandings should have made it stronger, Yet things just kept getting worse, And before we knew, it was all over, Is it that you found, Better friends, more jovial company, I wonder, is that why, Nowadays you don’t need me, I remember when I used to cheer you up, And it gave me immense contentment, To later see that cute smile on your face, But now I miss the smile, the priceless moment, We were so close, I vividly remember, If ever I didn’t call you throughout the day, I used to get your call at night, Just to make sure I was okay, But now my phone remains idle, Whole day, as I keep staring at it, A

A solemn goodbye!! This is just a solemn goodbye, To you, my beloved wife before I die, As I sign off without tears, Without sadness, without fears, Many storms you helped me weather, You were there by my side as a lover, As a friend, in sickness or in health, Till my very last breath, I didn’t deserve so much love from you, So pure, so virginal, so true, To have found you is my good luck indeed, Or maybe a result of some past deed, You saw me conquer; you saw me rise, I still remember the joy in your eyes, The moment of pride on our faces, When you saw me going places, Your love was deeper than the sea, But more importantly you were there with me, When things began to crumble, When we were in deep trouble, You saw my rise, you saw me fall, I thank you for helping me through it all, You made sure I bounced back, And gave me the courage I did lack, You, my love, were the perfect wife, The apple of my eye, the brightness of my life, And it feels sad to know, That our journey has

Repentance!! Change is the law of life, they say, But when everything’s going so great, Why do we let things change through one grave mistake, As the entire relationship is put to threat, Why is there a moment of anger, A moment of trauma, a moment of anguish, I wonder, during these helpless the nights of insomnia, How can happiness suddenly vanish, We make mistakes unintentionally, Yet they end up ruining everything, No explanations work in this case, As we hope time will heal everything, Such a thing happened with me, I made someone cry, I made her weep, I tortured her callously, incessantly, And gave her scars that run mighty deep, Today I ask for forgiveness, my friend, I did not mean to hurt you, I beg you to give me a second chance, Coz I promise I won’t ever betray you, But why would you trust me again, When I have broken your faith constantly, Why would you believe me henceforth, When I have lied to you perpetually, Forgotten all the things will be, That I did to bring

To my first love!! It’s been more than one year, Since I have written a poem for you, It feels weird now, but I wanted to, Write one, coz it’s your twenty-first birthday, I know birthdays don’t excite you, And that has perplexed me since long, As I perpetually wonder why the birthday song, Just doesn’t bring on a smile to your face, I want to change that, I really do; hence I am writing this, For you, for our friendship, for the memories, And also for my dreams that couldn’t become a reality, Ever since I first saw you in college, I was infatuated by your beauty, But I fell in love with you only, When I saw the angelic side of you, For me, you were the epitome of beauty, Your eyes, your smile, your grace, I could have spent years gazing at your face, And I had truly given my soul to you, I vividly remember the smile I got, When you complimented the poems I wrote for you, And I started dreaming about you, Every moment, every day, But then a fateful day came when you said, That y

I won’t let you die!! A guy’s fiancé suffered a near-fatal accident. Through this poem he is assuring her that everything will be alright.. I am going to die, Crying, she said to me, I held her hand and said to her, Trust me; I won’t let you die, We have promises to keep, We have dreams to fulfill, We have places to see, We have worlds to create before we sleep, I won’t let you go away, You know I can’t live without you, You know I need you a lot, Every single moment, every single day, How can you give up so easily, When you are such a strong-willed person, When you know you have the courage to fight back, How can you then submit so meekly, I want you to know, God wants us to be together, He wants to see us having babies, He wants to see our children grow, Why do you feel your end, Is so near, when you know, I am there by your side, Trying to protect, trying to defend, Baby, you are going to live long, We are going to spend fifty years together, It’s all pre-written, it’s fate

Who do you think you are?? This poem is based on reality, yet is fictional !!! You crept into my mind, Every single night, And showed me the visions, Of a future bright,                                                                                                                                                                                           You hypnotized me, With your innocent eyes, And enchanted me with your innocent smile, It transported me to a paradise, An angel I thought you were, As so easily, I fell in love with you, I wanted us to be together always, I would even have died for you, This was the feeling I had, A few months ago, Then things changed, and you changed, And this feeling vanished, before I did know, Now your name reminds me of, The pain you gave me, Your face reminds me of the bruises, The heartbreaks you gave me, Who do you think you are, To treat me like I hardly existed, And then to apologize for everything, And next day you talk with me as if n